Way back* in the thick of our busy family life, we lost an auto insurance claim check. What the heck? Where could a check we were so grateful to receive and so eager to deposit have disappeared?
We searched everywhere. Twice. Three times. Four. Logical places, illogical places. No check.
I knew it was likely to reveal itself eventually, at which point its path would make complete sense.
In the moment, though, I knew we were not going to locate that check. We had to let go of searching, we had to embrace not knowing.
We contacted the insurance company; they issued a new check.
Two years later, I went to tidy a small drawer in which we kept the Kodak envelopes that held negatives from photos we'd sent away to have developed (*As I said earlier, this was
way back!). In retrospect, I could suddenly see what had happened, even though I had no ability to imagine the scenario at the time. The mail delivery that included the insurance check also included envelopes of photographs. We opened everything, set the stack of mail down, and later brought the Kodak envelopes upstairs to their designated place in the desk drawer in our bedroom, never knowing the stack of envelopes also included the envelope containing the insurance check.
Similarly, my painting process for
Finding God only made sense to me retrospectively, after I'd found what I was looking for and could look back.
While creating my painting I was searching, looking everywhere, but couldn't find what I was looking for. Tried this, tried that, did logical things, illogical things. No discovery. Had to let go of searching, had to embrace not knowing.
Then, suddenly, days and weeks later, there it was—a compelling tangle of meadow! I found what I was looking for, and the whole process made sense.
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Want to take a closer look?
For the next few days, I invite you to join me in ignoring the security guard who will surely reprimand us for putting our faces just inches from this painting to find God in the tangle.
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Finding God in a Tangle of Meadow
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