Friday, November 29, 2019

The Occurrence and Development of Events by Chance in a Happy or Beneficial Way

Two years ago in November I started a bookmark. A day or two later I added the finished piece to my growing collection.

I never know, as I make bookmarks, when one of them will pair perfectly with the jacket of a book I've borrowed from my local library.

Two days ago, in the dizzying swirl of an unusually busy day, with mind and body moving in one direction and another and another, I fell into the grace of inner stillness and deep satisfaction at the serendipity of having a two-year-old bookmark be exquisitely just the right partner for the book that was next in the stack on my nightstand.

Like having all my chakras lined up.

And fun!

book and bookmark hanging out together

Thursday, November 21, 2019

Learning Style

Although I did well as a student when in school, I had a metacognitive epiphany after I finished my formal education and could step back to think about learning: following my own nose and lived experience are far more engaging to me than following a pre-established curriculum set out by someone else ever was.

So it's no surprise that when I took up painting a few years ago, I just started mucking about, trusting that I'd learn by doing.

Every now and then, though, I wonder what I've retained of the countless in-the-moment lessons that have come from my studio time. What have I come to know about 'how to paint' that is so deeply internalized I don't know I know it even though I put it into practice intuitively?

In any given moment, it feels to me as though I don't know much of anything! I just paint.

And that is fine by me.

A few days ago, however, I had the fun of discovering that I have learned at least one solid lesson that I'm able to consciously put to use. If I don't clean a brush thoroughly, or forget it altogether and let it dry out with paint-loaded bristles, soaking it in Murphy's Oil Soap for 24-48 hours dissolves the paint and returns my brush to good as new …



… which was especially helpful knowledge to have at the ready when I painted An Unrolled Bolt of Raw Feeling and looked down to see that in the process of expressing my raw feelings I had dripped a bunch of white paint on the recently-purchased jeans I was wearing.

They Began to Sing Very Softly
3.5 x 5" postcard; acrylic, oil pastel, and canvas and paper collage on card stock
abstract floral
2019

Monday, November 18, 2019

No Filter

rough day yesterday.
gray skies, 
gray spirits, 
heavy heart. 
an uproar 
of my own 
gray making. 

went into my studio, 
grabbed a finished painting, 
reached for gesso 
off a shelf.
and a brush.
painted right over 
that sucker.

black gesso. 
white gesso. 
whatever came to hand.

threw my raw feelings 
directly onto the canvas 
with no filter.

felt
much
better.


An Unrolled Bolt of Raw Feeling, Saturated with November
12 x 24"; acrylic, china marker, charcoal crayon, and collage on canvas
abstract
2019
SOLD



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earlier history: see 2017 post


Thursday, November 14, 2019

Wellspring

… a wellspring of gratitude: a few minutes in my studio when I thought no such minutes might be available. I come away with a lift in my heart and spirit.

Blank canvas becomes canvas with marks and colors, a starting place, a wellspring for whatever the next marks and colors might be.

detail from a start

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Simple Pleasures

• spying a bright pop of winterberry (Ilex verticillata) color against monochromatic wetlands on my way home from the gym
• laughing out loud when the last of eleven November poster calendars I'd affixed to the family room walls as seasonal decoration fell to the floor because the masking tape had no sticking power
• feeling my just-sharpened chef's knife chop through bok choy at lunch time
• spreading black gesso onto card stock with a brush

Out of the Early Morning Darkness
3.5 x 5" postcard; acrylic and collage on card stock
abstract
2019

Tuesday, November 12, 2019

November 12

November 12

     4:30 a.m.


     On mornings like this, as hours before dawn
     I walk the dark hall of the road
     with my life creaking under my feet, I sometimes
     take hold of the cold porcelain knob
     of the moon, and turn it, and step into a room
     warm and yellow, and take my seat
     at a small wooden table with a border of painted pansies,
     and wait for my mother to bring me my bowl.

                             —Ted Kooser, Winter Morning Walks



Save Room for Dancing
3.5 x 5" postcard; acrylic, pencil, collage, and oil pastel on card stock*
abstract
2019


* card stock = table number placard from Scott & Alisa's wedding reception










Friday, November 8, 2019

An Afternoon in November

contentment,
ease,
effortlessness and
experimental energy
today—
open heart,
open mind,
unfettered partnership
of hand
and muse

A System Joyously Disarranged Past All Reassembly
3.5 x 5" postcard; collage, pencil, ink, acrylic, and oil pastel on card stock
abstract
2019

Thursday, November 7, 2019

Intrepid

Here's what sculptor Henry Moore asserted when asked in an interview by writer Donald Hall, "What is the secret of life?"

The secret of life
is to have a task,
something you devote
your entire life to,
something you bring
everything to,
every minute of the day
for your whole life.
And the most important
thing is—
it must be
something
you cannot possibly do.


That is where I find myself: devoted to something I cannot possibly do, paintbrush in hand, pulled to reach for an ineffable something which I am not even able to name.

I feel intrepid at the moment, newly determined to push through my own kicking and screaming to become less fussy and deliberate, more experimental, more willing to walk with awkward, more able to tolerate that which is unpleasing to my eye.

Funk & Wagnalls Walk the Field Beside the Cottage
6 x 6"; acrylic, ink, oil pastel, graphite crayon, and collage on gessobord
abstract
2019

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A partial history of this painting:

Singing at Singing, 2015
6 days ago
6 days ago
5 days ago
today!

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

Movement

Start.

Stop.

Turn upside down.

Done.

Stay in motion—on to another.

Groundless Theory
3.5 x 5" postcard; acrylic, pastel, and collage on card stock
abstract
2019



Friday, November 1, 2019

Five Bob's Worth of Roman Candles

'B-but, Mr. Jimson, I w-want to be an artist.'

'Of course you do,' I said, 'everybody does once. But they get over it, thank God, like the measles and the chickenpox. Go home and go to bed and take some hot lemonade and put on three blankets and sweat it out.'

'But, Mr. J-jimson, there must be artists.'

'Yes, and lunatics and lepers, but why go and live in an asylum before you're sent for? If you find life a bit dull at home,' I said, 'and want to amuse yourself, put a stick of dynamite in the kitchen fire, or shoot a policeman. Volunteer for a test pilot, or dive off Tower Bridge with five bob's worth of roman candles in each pocket. You'd get twice the fun at about one-tenth the risk.'
                                                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                          —Joyce Cary

Why Go and Live in an Asylum Before You're Sent For?
6 x 6"; acrylic, pastel, and collage on gessobord
abstract
2019