The word tumult comes to mind, so I look it up. Top definition refers to loud confused noise. Nope, that's not what I'm looking for. Second definition references confusion and disorder. Closer, but not really on target. I look next at chaos. In a state of complete confusion and disorder.
Hmm, what's the word for partial confusion and disorder? What's the suffix that would indicate of or pertaining to confusion and disorder? Tumultish? Chaotious?
My current internal and external circumstances feel confused and disordered but, in truth, they are not without some clarity and systems.
I can't find the precise word I want.
I feel ill-defined.
In any case, here's what emerges in stolen moments over the course of at least two weeks when I open my sketchbook and put art supplies of one sort or another into my hands.
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Even If You Was Made to Do Bad Stuff, You Don't Have to For Ever 9 x 12"; acrylic, watercolor, ink, oil pastel, and collage on paper abstract 2022 |
