That monkey-mind chatter is pretty darned convincing, though.
And loud? Oh my gosh, so loud.
And seemingly unremitting.
The chatter started up in full force yesterday when I messed up this work in progress which had been sweet and magical … up until it decidedly was not.
Too bad I didn't think to watch the shopping scene from Pretty Woman yesterday—that video clip would have snapped me right out of the deep funk I fell into!
As it was, even in my pain, which acted as a lightning rod for every single blessed thing that didn't go the way I hoped it would yesterday, I was able to turn a deaf ear to monkey-mind's taunts for just enough moments to know that all was well, no matter the apparent evidence to the contrary.
Soon enough, I found myself at peace again, able to feel the excitement that comes from having a puzzle to solve and a what-if mindset.
I returned to the spirit that artist Jacqui Beck so well embodies. She follows the ad-lib theater rule, which is, Always say yes. She gives the following example:
Oh, man … this black … I just painted so much black over this.
Yes, I did.
My answer to now what was to set aside Big Mistake, pick up a second start from the same series, and start to play.
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