I blurted out, "I don't know if I could even make myself say those words out loud if they were my lines in a play! I wake up every day thinking, 'OH MY GOSH, how will I get everything done?'"
The point isn't that this client has oodles of free time. She doesn't. She works, has children in middle school, has a husband, keeps a home, and probably does a million other things, too.
The point is that I have just as much discretionary time as she does, but I don't think I do.
Long way of saying, I gotta get me some surrender going here! Be in the moment.
Where better to practice than in my studio?
Before sitting to write this post, and after going wild with unstretched canvas, charcoal, acrylics, ink, wax pastels, watercolor pencils, and oil pastels—layer after scribble after scratch after brush stroke after finger smudge—I took a refresher look at the word yield. Fun to be reminded: it means not only to relinquish possession of, give way, or give something up, but also to produce, provide, or deliver.
Relinquished possession of control.
Gave way to impulse.
Gave up the idea of a specific outcome.
Delivered myself a painting.
|Late Autumn Yield|
5x7", charcoal pencil, acrylic, ink, wax pastels,
watercolor pencils, and oil pastels on unstretched canvas