So … out of shape!
Yesterday, Day 1, I started by making two speed paintings to give me interesting backgrounds with which to try my hand at using negative space.
Inner voice: Well, this is not interesting. These Blick student paints are ugly.
I went on, flew by the seat of my pants, hoped to have one mark or shape lead to the next in a pleasing way, but I had trouble using the mask I made. Painting over the background felt uneven and ungainly.
No, no, no. Why can't I get these paints to work? Why does it look so easy when Jane does it?
I noticed my inner voice.
Redirected myself to The Parameters That Define This Exploration.
Today, Day 2, I go online to look at some shapes-oriented art of others. My knee-jerk reaction: an internal impulse to imitate.
I catch myself.
So, my mantra for today: get centered, breathe deeply, move slowly.
What then comes to consciousness is something from deeper than the imitation impulse—the recognition that what I want to 'imitate' is not this painting or that, but any given artist's ability to express herself uniquely.
I don't want to imitate at all—I want to still myself enough to discover, develop, and honor my own visual voice.
Get centered, breathe deeply, move slowly.
Just do the lesson.