Thursday, November 5, 2015

Deep River of the Soul

Grief is the deep river of the soul.

I float in that river. I yield to the bouyancy of the water, and it supports me.

Where it goes, I go.

I walk into my studio these days with few ideas, no photo references. I float in the river.

Where it goes, I go.

I tape canvas paper to the cafeteria tray I use as support when I work on paper at my easel. My hand reaches for a #12 bright. I dip my brush into one color. Into another. Into another.

The gentle friction of brushing paint onto paper feels just right.

My eyes take in the surprises that emerge.

I grab my hair drier to hasten the drying, then park myself outdoors in the warmth of a sunny November afternoon. With a pen, sitting in a river of light, I trace shapes.

I stop painting.

I keep floating.

buoyancy 1, 11/3/15
work in progress


buoyancy 2, 11/3/15
work in progress


8 comments:

  1. I'm in that deep river too, floating along with you. I'm grateful you were able to express it in your art.,,

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  2. Maybe we can work out a synchronized swimming routine as long as we're in this river together! I am SO grateful to have art as a new mode of self-expression, especially since what I am experiencing keeps defying my usual ability to use language; the wordlessness of art is a gift in my current emotional wordlessness.

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  3. Let me know when you come up with a synchronized swimming routine. I'm using knitting a project Muth began, to work through my current emotional wordlessness.

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  4. It's a sweater for the daughter of their (and our) favorite waitress at the Chinese restaurant. She's now too big for it but I'm giving it to her anyway.

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  5. Lovely ... so abstract and evocative ...

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  6. Thanks, Meg! I worked from inner nudges, had no plan other than to put paint on paper, but in the end there I was with what felt like a flowing river in front of me : )

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